I don't even know how to start this.

Nationals are in 7 days.
Cheerleading are in 7 days.
Sa1 is in 14 days.
And I'm starting to not know anything anymore.
Idk how I'm gna manage everything.
I just skipped tuition today and I'm gna get a huge scolding by my dad cuz my teacher had given up on me.
4hrs today. 5-7,730-930.
I wanted to go for only the later one.
But the later one depends on the earlier one.
But its like, hello? I'm in Na and he freaking hell teaches the Express standard thing.
He thinks i'm smart-.- ya sure wtv.
I cant even clear my doubts with him cuz he's just doesnt have the thing for me to be open to.
And yeah i may be doing well cuz of his tuition. But now, I'm starting to doubt myself.
Half the time, the questions on my exercise books are wrong and i just hate it.
And when i get to school, i understand so much better cuz of the ppl arnd and ms loke.
I asked my tuition teacher whether he could teach me at na pace, he didnt want.
Thn i asked for at least amath. He said okay, but it still feels the same.
Now he told me tht it will not be the usual tuition but only go when i'm free and EACH LESSON WHICH IS LIKE ONLY 2 FREAKING HOURS IS 60BUCKS! WHAT THE FUCK. AND ISABELLA'S IS ONLY 25! HELLO! ITS 2 TIMES! WTF, I'D RATHER NOT GO AND ATTEND FELICIA'S OR SOMETHING. BASTARD.

Oh, and did i mention, his tuition place (his house) is at fricking tanahmerah, and if you didnt know, its at BEDOK. Near changi.
And where do i live? HELL BUKIT BATOK.
If its from home, it takes me like 1hr 30mins to get to tuition.
If from school, half an hour. but still! wtf.
He thinks im a robot. never tired.
But still, robots get tired, they need to recharge..
And my dad is gna scold me.
He doesn't get it.
He thinks i'm always so free and everything when everything i have something going on!
And this is just stupid. Just cuz the stupid dumb tuition teacher has to go somewhere in June for the whole month, he makes us go for tuition 4 times a week. He thinks we have no life.
Fuck. And plus Cheerleading, I didn't want to go but cuz of someone who doesnt want to do something for us, we have to do it all on our own. And seeing tht, me and wq decided to join and we learnt all the steps in like what 2 days? And 2 ppl in cl cant even come for 1 freaking practice! I mean like wtf, dont want to join say so luh bitch. And nationals, for tht, i only blame myself. The difference between me, c and a is totally nowhere near. And the cut off to semifinals is like 19m! Kill me. I know i'm ranting. But i really cant take it anymore. And now, my days are like shit. I rly want to quit tuition. At least just quit emath.

Sometimes I wonder, what am I doing this for.
No one can understand me right now.
I even cried in sch and in the bus wtf.
Okay i sound like some emo shit. But wtv, think what you want.
Idk how to face my parents anymore.
It has been a long time since i've posted and it had to start with this kind of things.
Maybe i've been keeping it in for too long.
The world's disgusting. They have been going at too fast a pace tht they dont even realise tht some of the minority can't keep up.
The world is gross.

Why now.